writing

I have completely coherent thoughts that go through my head about everything. Things I want to share with people. Then I start to write them down and the thoughts get lost in a sea of jumbled words. I see friends blogs where there thoughts and experiences are wrote so perfectly and organized. Then I feel bad for people trying to understand what I am trying to say.

Some thoughts for today...
Driving
Back aches
and babies

Driving
I don't drive... I drive around the gravel road where my family lives a little. I did have a permit before and did a lot of driving to town and back (like 4 years ago). For some reason I fear it. Having control over such a big powerful machine. The Idea that I could do a lot of damage to something or someone. I feel like I can not concentrate on the road and my surroundings. Knowing if I am between the lines. Ty's road rage doesn't help he gets really upset with "stupid" drivers and I do not want to be a "stupid" driver that makes someone feel that way. I guess I just need to relax and find some time for Ty to take me to get another permit. The time thing is an issue Ty doesn't have time to drive us around all the time so I need to take on the responsibility. 

Back aches
or maybe chronic back pain... I think that when someone complains about their back hurting at least 3 times a day everyday that they need to do something about it. I told him I was going to set up a consultation with a chiropractor in a whinny tired voice he said "I have no time"


Babies...

I didnt take enough/any pictures on the 4th

 In fact Ty went to sleep at 7 and Allyson at 9. We had a nice bbq with Ty's family and that was about it.

Eating dirt

dirty face

 

 

 

She fell in the little pool then rolled in a molehill

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The sunset on the way home after a long 4th of July weekend

We had spaghetti for dinner and it turned her into the great pumpkin

In her pool on the balcony

I have been dealing with the idea of another baby. With so many friends and acquaintances not being able to get pregnant, having miscarriages, giving birth to stillborn babies, losing babies after a few hours of life and just having terrible pregnancies. It feels almost wrong that I can get pregnant very easily, have easy pregnancies and hopefully more smooth deliveries. (I think that means we should have lots of kids but Ty says 3 we will see :) Im going for 5...). We are expecting #2 in January the babies will be 21 months apart. That was a little shocking to me but I have many friends that have little ones just as close or closer and most of them are doing fine :) Sometimes I feel to young...

Anyway if I hadn't seen this picture I probably wouldn't believe it. I had very little morning sickness with A and none this time just a little nauseous and really tired. I don't feel pregnant. At almost 14 weeks now I can tell that my belly is getting bigger.

  

So that is my extra long post that probably should have been 3 or 4 separate posts.