Some random thoughts

Some thoughts I wrote last week with updates from today

8/23We know what our little boy's name is but what about sharing it before he is born. I worry about someone stealing it. Although it is his name so it wouldn't matter we would still use it. I also do not want to hear opinions about the name. 8/27Ty told his mom the name we are thinking about so I guess I will tell more family.

8/23Who would have thought that after waiting so long for Allyson to finally start sleeping though the night I would be awake at 1am wishing I was cuddling with her. I guess its part of having a husband that works nights. Sooner than later we will have another little one that will be keeping me up all night. :)

8/23Can you prepare for loss? My grandpa has been sick for many years and has had multiple heart attacks. He has now been diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer (his fault for smoking so much) Some many questions that still need answered to know his true prognoses. Lots of 30% chances and a max of 5 years. I just taking it day by day because the doctors only give us information little by little. He has surgery in the morning to find out if it is also in his left lung. 8/27The cancer in the right lung has doubled in size in the last month. He starts chemo next week. They have given him about a year to live.

8/24The house buying... we didnt qualify for the loan we applied for by 6 points. So disheartening. So many things to figure out. The biggest is where we are going next, our lease is up at the end of September and there is no way we are staying in this apartment or any apartment again. So do we find a house and waste more money paying rent. Plus that would most likely get us into another lease which would make it longer before we could buy because we would be in that contract. 8/27Ty is going to work on transferring so what ever happens with that this week will help us decide what we are doing in the next few months.