If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart, I'll always be with you. - Christopher Robin

 

Death is not the end. It is putting out the candle because the dawn has come.

 -Rabindranath Tagore

My Papa updated

My grandpa was given a prognosis of 6 months. It is day to day though. His mind is not here. He is 63 years old and looks like his dad did in his 90's. A few recent pictures on good days.


He got worse as the day went on. He took a nap and a nurse came to check his vitals which were good. I went to help him stand up with my aunt he looked at me and said "who are you" :( later he made a scumner joke about me going to Sumner High (I guess he thinks it is 1964 when he was in high school). I shrugged it off but when my grandma found out she started crying which made me cry.

Allyson wearing Grams glasses and talking to her Papa

Brennan and his Papa

Weight Dog Car

With both babies I started out over weight. Since Ty and I met 5 years ago I have gained 50lbs (not including pregnancies) I gain around 30lbs during both pregnancies and lost it instantly. With the first I didn't lose anymore after that. Then getting pregnant again a year after she was born didn't help. Brennan is now just over 4 months and I have been thinking about losing weight. I am not looking to be as thin as I was in high school(not that I felt that thin then). I would like to lose 25-30lbs that would get me just below 25 on the body mass index. I think I would feel better in many ways, health wise, image wise, physically, and emotionally.


I have been try to walk 2 miles at least twice a week. I am now in my second week of Jillian Micheal's upside down abs.

In the last 3 weeks I have lost 8lbs!

Brennan is still nursing and that is a little above the recommended weight lose while nursing but I am being healthy. I am making sure I am eating enough for him but not over eating (I tend to binge eat). Eating 6 meals is really helping and that is how Allyson eats anyway so I eat when she does. Lots of water is important while nursing. I haven't been keeping junk snacks around either.

We got a DOG!

This is Mickey the top picture is from the ad I found for him. He is a 10 month old golden retriever mix. Although he has a lot of energy he is very obedient and great with the kids!

My grumpy "how dare you bring home a Dog" Kitty

Ty has been in 2 accidents since we moved :( In March he got caught in a snow storm near the Boeing freeway, spun a few times and went in the ditch luckily didn't hit anyone. A few days ago he hit a kitchen cabinet that was on the freeway :( the car goes into the shop next Tuesday. 

Brennan is 4 months old

she wouldn't hold still

she wouldn't stop laughing

Oh Sesame Street

 

Mother

Sunday I was writing my thoughts on mothers day. something about how I Struggle with negative thoughts around mothers day but my mother leaving me has taught me a lot. I know what choices not to make so my life doesn't go in the direction hers has. It disappeared so I guess it was something that shouldn't have been posted.

My sister said it best: "I find it strange how relationships can come or go. They say the bond between a mother and child could never be stronger but I find that statement to be misguided. The subject of “mother” shouldn’t be the woman who carried and then gave birth after nine months; the “mother” is whoever had the largest impact in being raised. It’s the person who stood by every decision that was made but also supplied hints along the way in which direction to travel. As Sherrilyn Kenyon wrote “We have three kinds of family. Those we are born to, those who are born to use and those who we let into our hearts."

I am so thankful for my grandma and grandpa for taking me. Although my cousin in back in her daughters life my grandma is now on her 4th set of kids, 3 of her own, 2 step kids, myself and cousin, and now a great granddaughter. 

I love my 

Babies

So far this year

It has been 3 months since I posted last I thought it was time for an update. I think i am going to try to update more often, something like a journal/record of the quirky things my babies do.

Brennan is 3 months old, Allyson just had her 2nd birthday, and we just got back from a night at the Great Wolf Lodge.

Updates:

Read Brennan's birth story HERE

Happy Valentines Day, foreign object in nose, and St Patrick's Day HERE

Happy Easter HERE

Allyson's Birthday and the Great Wolf Lodge HERE

Enjoying some nice spring weather

Lunch outside

 Dandelions

 Tire swing!

 Our grass needs mowed

Allyson is 2 and The Great Wolf Lodge

After pancakes for breakfast we took Allyson to Decoursey Park. To see the ducks and play on the swings and slides. On Saturday we had some family over for dinner.  I decorated with Minnie Mouse ears. I made these awesome dinner rolls to use as buns for chicken sandwiches. We had just bought 40 lbs of chicken from Zaycon Foods. It is great chicken.

 

 

Its my party, I can cry if I want to

She loves the ribit Happy Birthday  card

 

Our trip to the Lodge was a late birthday present for me a late anniversary trip and for Allyson's birthday. Ty's mom and sister also went. Every room was booked so it was packed for a Sunday night. Allyson stayed up until 11:30pm to tired to sleep. Brennan slept in until 10am so it worked. It took Allyson a while to warm up to the water. The little kid pool which has a zero depth entry and a max of 18inch was great. My MIL sat with the babies while we went on the big slides and in the wave pool. I got my aquaphobic little girl to walk into the wave pool while it was calm until her life jacket started to float and bother her. Although we could stay until 9pm we had to leave around 3 because Ty had to work Monday night. I am not sure it was worth it but we had fun!